"Sisters"

There's nothing like a sisters bond, it's like having a best friend you can't get rid of! She'll always be there no matter what. She's someone who may compete with you, but will love and accept you for you - more than anyone else in this world could. A sister is special, she's different than any other girlfriend. She knows who you are inside and out, what your favorite color is, what your favorite toy was when you were little, deep secrets you may have. You know that she will always be there for you, through thick and thin, good times and bad. You may have your disagreements, but in the end she will love you no matter what. A sister is someone who will always get "the inside joke" when telling a story, or know stuff that your parents, to this day, never knew happened. My sister and I are very different, but we share a past and a childhood that is unique and special to us, just like all sisters do. Growing-up together, my sister and I fought (mostly about clothes and boys), but that has been long forgotten and as we have grown older we have gotten closer. Nowadays with my sister, it's all fun! I love every chance I get to go to Utah to see her. Staying up late talking with lots of good "adult food" and listening to 80's music reminiscing about the past, sharing "kid rearing" secrets, laughing....a lot and taking our beautiful children to make lots of fun memories with their cousins! This last weekend we went to Utah to see my sister, and as always, we had so much fun! I'm so thankful I have a sister.

I'm a Scaredeee Caaat!

Last weekend John and I went to Las Vegas for a night and then on up to Utah to see my sis! We had such a wonderful time. We even got to ride in a hellicopter over the Hoover Dam! I was really scared to even get on the dang thing, I almost backed out at the last min. It's weird because, before I had kids, I wouldn't of even thought twice about getting on it or doing anything kinda daring for that matter. But when you have these little lives to live for and want to see grow-up and protect, it kinda puts things into perspective and makes you evaluate your priorities in life. Before them, my priorities were pretty much having fun! Now it's about being there for them and protecting them, and you really can't do that very well if your not here on earth anymore! So anyways, all of that was going through my mind when the guy that takes your money said he needed a name and phone number of who to contact in case of an emergency, and I said "uh' you mean if we wreck and die," and he was like "pretty much!" I turned to John and I said "I don't think I'm gonna be going," he just laughed, and said "come on baby, we'll be fine." Well obviously we made it out alive, but when that thing landed, I was so relieved!

"Carried Away"

Well I guess I got a little carried away with a whole lotta pictures and a lot less writing when I set up my blog! I guess I was just so eager to share with everyone the pics of my "beautiful" children and my "oh so handsome" man! They just mean so much to me! Well these past 2 years have been so hectic for me, I feel like it's been kind of a blur, almost like when the twins were born and I was so exausted from trying to get used to being a new mom to 2 babies at that! So to say the least, the first 6 mos. of their life was kind of a blur! That's sad I know, but I enjoyed every bit of it and I have well over 800 pictures to prove it. Anyways, these past 2 years have been a little like that. Two years ago I was married to Cody, but just a short 2 months later, my world was crushed (or so I thought) when Cody and I got divorced! I never thought that divorce would ever happen to me, I thought I had some kind of super-mom-power that I would always be able to hold my family together, through thick and thin, but if anyone knows the power of addiction and what it can do to a person, then you would understand how our world fell apart. He had his addicting demons that no one but him could stop or control. I did all that I could and gave it my all, but then I realized I had done everything that I was capable of doing and it was time to just get me and the kids out! The first 3 months were so hard, I moved in with my mom and with her support and persistent "pushing" (in which I am extremely grateful for) I immediately applied to the Nursing program. I had 2 weeks to study for the entrance exam and get all my transcripts and application in, so I got to work. I did well on the entrance exam, and to my complete surprise, I got into the program! I know that I have been blessed from above. Everything has fallen into place for me and the kids. So back in school I was! I was still very down and depressed about my life though, I was really worried about the kids the most and how this divorce would affect them for the rest of their lives, but I felt it would be better than growing up in the kind of atmosphere they were previously in .......And then fate happened, I met a beautiful person, who showed me a different kind of love, one that I never knew existed. John rescued me! I fell so hard and fast for him! He was so different than anyone I had ever known, and I loved that! I know it kinda sounds fairy-tale-ish, but it is so true. He has been so good for me. He is so wonderful with Sayler and Ridge, they absolutely love him! We have had such a blast this past year and a half that we have been together! It has been crazy with me being in school and a long distance relationship, driving 3 1/2 hrs. to see one another every weekend, but it has been an adventure! Nursing school has probably been one of the hardest things I have ever done. So many people warned me, but it's really hard to understand unless your right there in the nursing program with me. Being a single mom with 3 year old twins when i first started, was insane, but with the help of the best mom in the world and a very supportive fiance and almost perfect children, I am almost done with this phase of school (I plan to continue my education to become a Pediatric Nurse Practitioner)! I just have to say one last thing, what a wonderful mom I have, she is the perfect example of the hardest working, independent, caring, compassionate, motherly person you could ever know. She is so self-less and such a pleaser, she has done so much for me, especially these past two years, and I think my kids actually love her more than they love me! Ha ha. My dad is wonderful too, he's just the quiet, laid back, side-liner that always supports me too, just sometimes from afar! Thank you guys, I love you!